February 27, 2009
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Note to former Totse members
As you now know, totse is no more. I assume the link to zoklet.net is still up; this community is growing rapidly and evolving. I post there under my real name, Greyfox and moderate “Metaphysics”–the forum for religion–and “Paranormal”–the forum for, well, the paranormal. In general, “Metaphysics” is more about theory, while “Paranormal” is more about practice.
Also, I still offer free psychic readings.
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Greetings from Perry County, stopped over to see if you had any words of wisdom. I marvel at your marriage, wondering how two can be happy/content with living apart. Re-read the valentines day poem you wrote, it is so touching. Yes, been feeling all down and out lately, mostly cuz of the fact that boyfriend will always be part time (he works in NYC during the week and comes home to his house in Lancaster on weekends) and, well just feeling lonely and sorry for myself. Always wondered how Mom could stand living alone. But at least she had neighbors and a little town to walk around, I’m stuck out here in the middle of nowhere. I mean, I know I can do it, hell it’s been 3 years since I kicked the markster out, but god sometimes I get so darned sick of my own company! I know happiness is just a frame of mind, and most days I can pull it off, but theres this little voice nagging the back of my mind telling me I’ll be alone the rest of my life and it’s hopeless to think this relationship will ever change. Is it stupid and childish and selfish to want to spend time with the person you love? Well I guess I always was a bit selfish, I think that’s why I decided to not have kids. Ah crap, well now that I’ve rambled on in your comments, I guess I’ll get back to reality. Cleaning the house, one room at a time. Sigh. Been sick, so I’m doing the Lysol fumigation method. Cleaning helps me clear out my mind. Which is something I need to do. Well, thanks, bro, for listening….
Love ya, Cyn
Hi there. Have lived in the Tanana basin for most of my goofy life and just wanted to thank you for all the information and musings. Again I thank you.
Beelzabob.
“the only reason I’m not happy is because I’m not in control” I had to write that down before I lost it. Okay, so to backtrack, and this will be hard to explain the roundabout way I reached this profound revelation….I was pondering your comments and at first it didn’t make sense cuz the black & white logical inside me said but wait, if chosing to eat carrots over peas makes me happy because I have a choice and both are healthy for me and either is okay to eat, does that make me dependent on carrots? and I just kept at what you said, turning over different thoughts and going on and on about how, no, I’m not addicted to Richard, I’m not UNhappy when he’s not here, but I’m happy when he IS here … because, hmm, let’s see, because he’s here, and …. DING because then I’m in control! geeezzzz!
Stopped over to say THANK YOU! I figured out the bottom line and now that I realize nothing is in my control, I can let this go. (HAPPY DANCE!!!) see, it doesn’t take much to make me happy…..
I think the bottom line question to you, was, doesn’t being apart from Kathi make you unhappy? or how do you let it not make you unhappy? but duh, I just realized that is probably exactly what you were trying to explain to my dense little head!
Regarding visiting Alaska, you know me, I’m cold when the sun goes behind a cloud on the beach! I love watching it on the travel channel, but if I were to take a vacation, it would be warm. Never know, tho, Richard has never been to Alaska and I’ll bet if I suggested it, he’d bite. He considers himself to be a world traveler – adventurer type.
Glad to hear you’re doing well, thanks for listening to my ramblings…. Take care, Love ya!
@FourthChance - I’m glad Greyfox found the words to cheer you up. Regarding our being happy living apart, I’m with him on the idea of happiness being a choice. I think, actually, he got that idea from me… or, if not (and he does seem somewhat resistant to taking my word for philosophical concepts and must come to them the long way ’round, usually through some published source written by someone of the masculine gender), I at least accepted the idea before he did.
I digressed there, didn’t I? Oh well, we are happy, and it has nothing to do with being together or apart. That said, as the time between our get togethers grows longer, we both tend to look forward with more eagerness to my next trip to town. When we can see and touch each other again, it’s a special feeling, warmer and not as abstract as happiness. Both of us do a lot of smiling and laughing when we’re together. I’m just glad we’re not one of those bicoastal couples who have to contend with airport security to get together.
i’ve been wondering if i should do psychic readings.
could you do a free psychic reading over the internet ?
I second Shayne’s request. Is it possible to provide free psychic reading via internet? Or possibly phone?